Thomas Newman Makes Me Cry

It's been 4 weeks almost 5.. Time slips away so fast. Today I woke up with the soundtrack of my life playing in my head, and decided to write about it. I find it awe inspiring how a song without words only the dynamics and simpleness of notes strung on a page can move in big ways. Although I do understand how these dynamics work, and the specific ways into achieving this goal I never loose my awe of this great wonder. It's amazing how a song can move you in such ways, can feel what you are feeling. I truly think specifically that movie scores are greatly underrated and are not given enough credit by the least. Some of our best musicians are playing in the Boston Pop's, and CSO yes, but if we don't take the time to listen for those songs that connect us as Humans, and show us another side of Heaven, then we are wasting away this great gift God has given us.
Thomas Newman, my favorite composer of this time, captures this passion very well. It may be because I am a sucker for piano ballads and oboe solos, but every time I listen to him my story of my life fits perfectly note by note. I encourage anyone who is reading this, to find this song, find this musician who touches your life, who plays your life song, and never let go of it. Maybe I am just a music dork, who has had to many lessons, and to much music theory, but take my word for it. Isn't God amazing? He truly is.

(Listening to Nemo Egg: Main Title Thomas Newman)

Summer Day: 29
Hands of cards: Too many to count .... Although Meghann Burt and I beat Stacy Heggen in Spades on Tuesday Night.

Graduations.. Endless Parties.. Life

Summer day- 19

Hand of cards- too many

Graduation parties- 8
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Graduation parties to go- 12
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Graduation ceremony
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Am I still in high school? Didn't I go away to college.. I swear this is more than I went to last year. Graduation parties are pretty awkward I have come to find this year. You go and eat.. sometimes really good food, sometimes just the fruit ( because that's all you trust). Then you sit around and wait for someone to talk to you, and sometimes no one does, so you don't really know what to do, so you sit and eat slow.. and then leave, quietly. ha! It's sorta annoying. But I guess it's one of those things you never get out . Graduation parties will follow you to the grave.

You know the funny thing about summer, after high school, you never have a summer. It's work, and school all summer. I wish I would have taken the time to enjoy my summers as a kid more. I was always the child who was excited to go get new school supplies and go back to school.. I guess that's why I am going to be a teacher. Come to think about it.. I am excited to go back to school.. thats sad.

Missing you.. whoever you are.

"1234 Tell me that you love me more. . "

The rain has been a faithful friend this spring.. Like all springs at home, it's sunny one day and raining the next. Most people dread the rain, but for me it's cozy, relaxing, and on a Sunday afternoon a great excuse to lay in bed. I had forgotten how fast spring moves. I have been home for two weeks which feels almost like a month or two, but at the same time, graduation parties, graduations and end of the year grades feel like they come like clock work.

So with time going so fast and slow, I find myself wondering how I am making a difference. Am I living everyday for the next, or living today as it's my last day? It's easy to forget that life is just a blink, but it is. So for this rainy day I will read and enjoy my life here where I am on this rainy May day, you should too.

Summer day 14.. missing you.

"Life doesn't always work out the way you plan, sometimes it's better."

In the last 5 days:

Hole in my radiator
Broken internet
Job's lost/on the brink
Birthday's Celebrated/ without all the people I love
Sleep lost
Head confused
Heart twisted....


But God is still God.

"If you read history you will find that the Christians who did most for the present world were precisely those who thought most of the next. It is since Christians have largely ceased to think of the other world that they have become so ineffective in this." C. S. Lewis

Peace in time of storm, seems almost impossible. Until we give everything up to God how is God suppose to fully take over our life. This idea of peace, takes more than Yoga everyday, or reading your Bible, or even praying it takes full surrender, which when you think about this it is a terrifying thought. Christ did not call us to be "lukewarm Christians" rather in His words He wants us to "Take up your cross and follow him". Like Francis Chan says in his book Crazy Love, and loves to reiterate every time I hear him speak, "Jesus asks for everything. But we try to give Him less." Lukewarm faith is completely useless in the Bible it says it can't even benefit manure. Wow maybe it's about time to live in faith, and walk in peace. Even when we don't understand, even when I don't understand, am I willing to take my cross and meet Jesus there?

Summer day 10

Tulip Time

Pella, Iowa: Population 10219 people, most of which are dutch.

Tulip time: fair food, dutchy's (the babies are the cutest), Jr. High love fest in Smokey Row ( don't ask) (it concluded with me telling management that they where loud ha!), dutch dancers, and of course tulips. For the first time, I did not have to march in the Tulip Time Parade, this did not sadden me ha! Instead I got to spend the time catching up with good friends, and enjoying a lovely Iowa thunderstorm. (It wouldn't be tulip time without rain- Erin McCool)

It hasn't even been a week, and I miss all my Judson family. So to all of you my Judson Family who is reading this right now, Happy Tulip Time to you. I miss you. Summer day 5

Cards

Cards:

Anyone who knows me or my family well knows that we are card players. Cards are a tool to bring my family members and I together. Many people joked before leaving school about how much I would play when I got home; for the record it's day 3 of summer and I have played 8 hands.
The cool thing about cards is it brings my grandparents together. My mom's parents have been divorced all my life, although they still enjoy playing cards together. Ironically my grandparents at college (adoptive) love to play cards too, hence why they adopted me. I think that the way God works in something so silly as cards is amazing, and shows once again the small joys in life.
Summer day 3.

Not wasting my summer

I decided after much contemplation, that blogging is inevitable. Therefore here is my summer blog, if anyone takes the time to read this I will be very shocked. Day 2 of summer has already come and gone, and all I have done is :

packed, unpacked, packed, put stuff in storage, and unpacked.
It is a never ending process of a college student I swear. No-one warns you of this during orientation, (warning you will pack and unpack and carry tons of boxes in the next 4 years). I am determined not to waste my summer though. Although I do live in one of the most boring states in the U.S I am going to make a difference somehow. . . Even though my thoughts and heart is somewhere else. I guess I will keep trucking along.